Hello.

Today was yet another passable day. I showed Sharli-tan the Repr0n doujins that I bought on Saturday, and the fangirls were happy. Bekaro-san told me some information. We had our Bio test, which I had forgotten about, and Lind & Co talked about Nana as I was packing. I finally got my blue Provincials duotang (so very late). And I just accidentally saved some BL pr0n into my Nabari no Ou folder in a fit of lazediaze. Jo-san got a hair-cut; I think I shall simply state that fact. If she asks me how it looks, which she won't, I shall tell her. Though I can't recall what it reminded me of this morning. Homeroom party luncheon tomorrow; I forgot to buy chips. French tutor classes are awkward. I binge eat and now weigh around 131 lbs. I fatass D:

Not much else to say, emo bloggin is pointless. Have religion notes to type up for Facebook. Bye.

Hello!

Today was quite fun. I'm currently watching Sin City, which si also fun. :D

Is something wrong with me?

I hate this false cheerfulness~! It's Fucking Sickening.

Sickening, because -

I want to be cool. Haha, who doesn't?

Ew, that's disgusting.

Anyhow, went to the ARt gallery today, with Charles. We ended up bumping into Roon, and afterwards I left the lovechirps together. ^_^ Stupid narrative in head, so annoying!

Went to the new Flaming Angels Shop, so that's where it was. I never thought I'd be able to go.

After leaving them, the wanderlust carried me over three streets to a japanese bookstore, where, after about half and hour of decision, I paid my fare into the Reborn fandom.

The exhibit was certainly... lacking. Nice, with lots of hands-on drawing workshops. I don't feel like recording much of what we did, since I think the biggest focus of the day was, ironically, meeting Roon. But I'll do a bit of elaboration.

Yes, I d'd of this one too.
oh.
it ended.
Well.

I... don't know. I gues the best way.. no. The best way to deal with my wimplash is to face it and ... do something. Face it. But by GOD when you're a wimp, nothing but the Reborn bullet will save ... and I have no Hitman tutor. Fuck this shit.

Anyhow. So I will continue bitterly hating myself , and waiting like a dog for it's master to come SAVE me. Help less. And Angry.

-cough- (to self: Shut UP Emo kid. )
Elaboration:
I have one photo XD before the security guard told me 'No u!'. The gift shop was awesome ; I saw alot of cosplay anthologies that I kind of wanted to buy for Jolca, and JUNKO MIZUNO<3<3!!

They were showing 'Place promised in our early days' in part of the anime exhibit, and I got really excited over it. There was also a workcorner where you could 'draw your 100 demons' and I spent some time there. Chiizu bought a mini-camera. We made thougth-bubbles (mine said 'Boys Love Yaoi' ^^;; and the other ?. Chiizu's had '!' and 'OBJECTION! ' on it :D XD) Um, and we did smatterings of rp throught the day.

Highlights of the day:
1. Giant pink-haired head of girl
2. sin City
3. Book store
4. What I bought at the bookstore FUCKING WIN RAMUBO
5. (Here, I'm supposed to put Roon. (JUST FUCKING SHUT UP AND LET ME TYPE, NOVELBRAIN D: ) So here he is. )
6. When Roon's friend climbed Spring.
7. Walking alone in Downtown, and getting home alone.

Brief note on number seven. During my ride home, these two guys got on near the door. They didnt'know each other at first. One guy had his young daughter with him, and she was eating ice cream or something. they start talking, and guy 2 says ' my wife let's me do anything, as long as I don't (insert imagination, I just remember thought 'huh. lenient...').' 'Mine too!' And this goes on.

Not untypical, I guess... but you know me. I feel sheltered and noobish all the fucking time, it's not even funny.

Anyhow. NO. MORE. EMO TALK. must indulge in yaoi to cheer up.

night!

my GOD the frustration.

I finished my first ARP book in 2 hours... but that was the one I was genuinely interested in. -sigh-

Anyhow, IT'S IMPOSSIBLE!
This whole thing, impossible!!

WHY WHY WHY

1. Must the Air Gear Dub SUCK so much?
My GOTT did they ruin Agito's voice. Serious. I shudder jus t to think of it.
Dub!Agito sounds like he's got hammered something fierce in the 455, and... Akito doesn't sound sparkly. At ALL. -pissed-

2. Must there be so little Air Gear Merchandise on sale?
I looked in Ebay! LJ! ETc.... not deviant art yet, because I want official merch...
But NOOO there's like, only RINGO and SIMCA figurines... on sale...
WEll, no. There's actually some model kits, but I dont'know how I could get them in time. Also, I don't understand how it could only cost 9 dollars for the entire pack. TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE?! but there's 10dollas shipping fee.
shikushikushiku

3. -

Here I got interrupted. It's Matt's birthday today
Oh, rather, I should stop calling her matt. Should I ? Er, have some inner dialogue thoughts.

Rather rather, I cannot call her anything now, because she belongs to another person. My mom knows how prssessive I am, and how I don't like to change. Well, nicknames... are my claim to people. When people answer me, it means they acknowledge that I own that name I gave them. So I ... not own. It's like a Emblem. 'This person is my friend, see it!"

As for stages of friends, I've blurred and erased most of them now, kind of... but I still am looking for that one person, as I've stated before.

But I can't own her, or any of my other candidates. I should know that. I'm not sure. Right now, I'm not feeling as bad as I thought I would, does it mean I understand? I only fear that I will erupt later. But I never wanted to own her that way, she was different because she had power, and I wanted to follow, not lead.

... Which means that our future is, gladly? Still in the Dark. Because I cannot , will not, not possibly imagine how things could go. She was different.

... What are my thoughts on Camus and Charlyeh?

Well... I'm happy, genuinely? I know I'm not happy from the very depths of my heart, because of the whole possisive thing, but I'm more than outerly happy. My happiness for them isn't artificial... rather, I"m glad she has someone, but I'm kind of sad that she'll have to divert attention from me. She doen'st have to say that won't happen, because it already has. ^_^ I dind't mind quite as much when it was with Na-chan, because , because... I don't know. Did I mind?

Lately, that whole 'Why the fuck ...   are you talking to me about shit  ' mindset has been in the back of my head. I don't know when or how I became like this! It's terrible! It's like ... it was so terrible, because I could hear it in the back of my mind, going ' er... I don't care' But I ... really did?

Do I, really? Sort of. What went through my mind ...
oh dear.

I was reacting?
I was acting. Like I usually do? You know, when I smile and say 'Yeah, exactly' and laugh... but I relaly didn't hear a word you said!
no , that's a bd example. I I was listening, but in my mind, I was going  "OKay. What mom said was listen patiently. I can do that, and I don't need to say a word right now. But waiting is so boring... but it makes Charlie happy to rant, I know, so I feel happy for making her happy for ranting, ... ' Basically that's all I felt, really. Happy to know she was happy. But I wasn't happy underneath, just bored and impatient.

Oh, wel... you know. Meaning my future prediction for us will go like this: Because my underself is bored, I will abandon her for other friends, because I don't want to make her unhappy by talking too much about myself, and always having to cringe just a little when she mentions something about relationships (the small cringe is a reflexive reaction made from jealousy, longing, envy, fear, exasperation, desperation, despair, impatience... and not lookoing forwards to stuff. ) , I don't want to make her unhappy or sad anlonger with my emo rants. Because I NEED to spend hours talking to someone. Particularly someone who understands me truly, and only charles and my mother seem to.

Course I don't give anyone else a chance . :)  Not...

Lalallal.

Time for self rant to continue :

Can't find Agito doujin. Bekaharo has my fucking sketchbook. Jess was amused at my msn name ( FU<KING SH!T!) .

Art Gallery .   oh . oh SHIT.

oh god. Um. I want to go for free (that's wtih Jess)  But I havne't hung out with Karl in a while... definitely Karl.

Anyhow. Um. SElf rant.

So my cellphone got confiscated friday, Karl came back friday, the minute it got confiscated I too out the penknife in my bag and cut (while Alie etc was watching, I think; coudnt'tell, was trying to sleep when teacher came over >_> ) I got my phone back after rushing my stupid Biochem test, then I hid behind the curtains in the gym and cried until I couldn't hear any life in the school .

(I never felt so ... weak and small. I felt like I could curl up and stay there forever, sobbing. it took a while before I could get up the will to leave.

Why do i do this?

After school during chinese time I had a long chat with mum.

Today, during the wedding reception, I randomly walked off again. I hung out at the empty wooden playground, palying with the equipment in my skirt... tried to bounce off walls and stuff too.

God, Air Treck lust is coursing through me so bad. I feel like... if I dont'try it , flying, soon, I'll...

So much so that during picking flowers for mothers day today, I ran off AGAIN.
Just... jumping from the swing (closest thing to flying I coudl get), jumpign from the 5 tier bench, climging onto the roof of the baseball bench place, climbing fences, chopping dandelions with low kicks (it's like , dust affect. Kind of cool. )

I can't stop. I want to. I fucking hate this life. I want to be happy. I want ... what everyone else wants! FUCK it. (want that too ._.  I'm tired.)

I'M SO TIRED.

someone, give me somethign to do. Let me finish. Make me.

Reread some of that shit. Um. Emo kid much.
I'm too old for this.
to the hell with lj. I'm going to... do something productive.

GOD there is nothing to do. I think I'll watch yaoi instead.

Yosh! I'm currently watching the end of Air Gear. ^_^

I should have watched this a long time ago...
Damn. And Backon was the guest musicians for last year's AE.
CHIKUSO!!!!!

Anyhow, a quick update, Kuizen's way.

Since no one has -loved- me for a while (no more nicknames darou... ) , I've been trying to find one myself.

Charles has been slain by a nasty allergy nyo..!  Just when she had something to hand over to me.

I 'm itching to fly... now to think that perhaps , .. even if its not Air Trekks, rollerblading... tricks.

ew........ his pants are ugly.

When I climb, and look down, am I afraid of fall, or am I afraid that I will lvoe falling too much?
I am afraid of falling, but the excitiement, I look forwards to it.

... the one day I wanted to run I couldn't. Running club was down.
Skating on ice is differen from skating, yeah... There's also no picks.

HAHAH AKITO THISLL IN THAT
FUCKING SHIT
HOT
heh. HOT.
HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

OH FUCK.
OOOOOOOOOOOH FUCK . That's what it was. SHIT! SHIT!!!
agh!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!!
NO, YOU FUCKING BITCH! DON'T TOUCH AKITO'S FACE. bitch.


Oh, about bitches.
Ore ga uno. Namae wa... iiyenai. ^_^ Anta wa NOTHINGU.
Heh.
fucking criminal pants!! THEY'RE AS BAD AS TIERIA'S PINK CARDIGAN.


Agito!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES, right. skldjfalk;sdjfl;kajsdlk;fjl;sdjfl;wiefjowijfpoisjdc jvljrgfpoi awepgt8wu3r89u3r83urpuf8u psdufpaosiduf poisdfuio ujufsdufsoidufosidufojaflksjdklfmvlksdfjslifuwpe8r :)

Akito is happy ~! 

Agito isn't complaining, so It's good.

Ha, ha.

The Emma dance was splendid today. I rather think I'd enjoy it if it occurred again.

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The last week, I tried really hard to be patient... it felt good, sometimes. And to give in, and not be detail oriented XD It was good.

I got Mx Stok to write up a emial with my care card number on it to Miz lang, but discovered that I still had the permission form in my bag when I got home. My mom thought 'Oh well, if you can't, go, you can't go then!'  And so did  the calmer, more laidback me.

But Outside I felt really mad and upset and put-off. First losing my camera... (2 gigs mem card!! and it cost like, ~100, etc. I was so careful not to lose it... and until about an hour ago I wouldn't believe that I had lost it.

But then an hour ago, the computer was being a piece of shit at loading, and after fruitlessly punchign and shaking it a few times, I restarted and chucked something to relieve my anger (I throw things when I get mad... it's like, throwing away the feelings? ). Unfortuantely the object hit a vase on top of the tv, which rolled off and smashed onto the floor.

It's a little thing. No big deal, I can handle it, it's just a freakin' VASE , no one needs o come down and see how stupid and badly I am, I didn't smash the vase on purpose either, stop staring and gathering around at me!!

Basically meaning half of my family suddenly appeared as I expected them to and I just exploded at them
Wow. I didn't know I could scream that loud. Even my own ears rang.

But yeah. All the stress, anxiety, effort of being more laidback and patient (and therefore less of the b!tch I can usually be)  ... also i think it fianlly hit me , the camera thing... i dunno. And I also haven't had any pillowtalk with anyone in a long time (= emotional sharing with a friend at 1 am :D So it IS technically pillow talk.)  Charles has been with (I can never remember her name, perhaps it is a subconcious reaction to  my irrational dislike of her?) (<-- which comes from jealousy, of course, but Outside me knows that's just dumb ._. Irrational, as I said before) (But you know. Inside me says Carl is more suited to that kind of person, since she's more ... loose? free? than me?  But Outside self is like 'Wtf? You're SILLY. Deep down you know that 1. Does that even matter? Still BFF. 2. No, she isn't. Matt said so himself. ) And Jelca is with Tasha (which I don't mind in the exact same sense... I mean, Jelca is happy with Tasha, if that makes her happy, I feel so happy too, because I'm a terrible person <--Look! LOOK at this idiot dissing herself! Isn't that pathetic? She shouldn't even exist if she thinks this kind of crap. <--- Well, I don't want to exist! <--- You're also a deep pain in the ASS. Sadistic bitch.

These days I talk to myself ALL. THE. TIME.
It's like i'm extra lonely or something. I can't stand not talking to myself.

I also don't care, or at least ignore my thoughts about other people's thoughts...

anyhow, to continue. So I just screamed my lungs out and ORDERED my dad to leave the room/ me alone, and he looked like a frikkin  bull, but he didn't hurt me like I wished anyone would.
(because if someone else hurts me I can feel justified knowing that I didn't do it myself, thus not making others worry about me, while at the same time feeling the pain, which is... good? I'm not sure if I like pain exactly (because tha'ts a bit of a wrong thing to say without proper testing)  (and also because I feel like throwing up at thought of chopped limbs, pierced body parts, and that weird feeling of a sharp thing slicing into you through the layers of tissue, which you can feel if you do it right) but ... yeah. Pain isn't too bad. sometimes.

And then I told my aunt to leave me alone too when she told me not to talk to my dad like that.
then I smashed a poor spider (while smashing a ruler really badly in the process D : I was a good ruler too, I didn't realize it would break so easy, but it DID. NOw I cannot find all the pieces. I've only got up to 20 cm of it D: And it smashed in a U shape in the middle ^^;;

After I had firmly closed the door... I sat and wept while apoligizing to the spider for good measure. My mom asked me what's wrong through the door, and I told her hormonal imbalance... which was actually it.

 I have really, really bad PMS. Do other people react like this too? Cry irrationally, scream, and be generally moody? anyhow, after  ripping up a newspaper (it makes me feel better because the task is so repetitive... rip half, rip in half, rip in half... ) and sobbing in the dark (while wondering when I would stop) for a while... I'm here.

So I relaly need to get to that brochure. Regardless of whether or not I will be going to the trip...

*deep breath*

(Screwed up thinking of mine:
I want to die/be erased because I don't want others to think I"m depending on them?
Because I don't want to be dependant?
Because I want to be stronger, and my memories are holding me back.
I selfishly want my memories to be erased so that I, ME, ONLY MYSELF, can live on, regardless of the pain I (hopefully?) will cause others.
(Causing pain to others means I will be remembered.
What does that mean?)
I don't want pity.
I want (servants? power? )
... to be completely black and white, I want power.
Oh dearie. It seems I'm still going about it in the wrong way... )

Watching Nabari no Ou 3, subbed. I had already -
J'ai deja regardé le ... ....
.. wow this guy is awesome.
NOOOOOOOOOO
stop it!
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNK.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUOOOK One True Pair born.
HE'S SOOOOOO PRETTTY
dkfja;skldjf;alskdjf;lasdjkf .

The trip was okay. I'm alreayd tired of telling the story of it all. SEriously. Funny. I shoudl record myself talking next time.

I'm rewatching the episodes... because I'm planning to rp Miharu.
Why?
I thought it'd be interesting.

I'll do it.

But here's the considerations:
... Hm. I should read the manga. yes.

Hello friends!!

I've taken to updating in the middle of the night here now, instead of on my cell... later bedtimes, yes.

Hm. New that I havent'shared yet, that is necessary:

I won't be able to make it to Chloe's one month anniversary because of RETREAT. -sigh-

It snowed here over the weekend. I drew a sad Tieria in the snow :D

My designs for AE mascot are... splitting off into two branches. Maybe I should take inspiration from ... what's her name?
Hm, she shall be Tybalt from now on :D
And implement some weapons. Modifying gunpla to fit a girl's form isn't working T_T

Ah, and about Tybalt; the reason behind the new name is because she joined an rp as him. However, I can't seem to find the RP anymore... I saw it recently, so it couldn't have been pimped more than a month ago... Let's see. A month ago, what fandom was I into? I do believe I was still into ... was I? I am not sure.
I'll try to get the address from Tybalt after the chem test.

Karupin and I are trying out for the Emma presentations. K. has not shown up with any updates on the poster. We are worried.

Hm... nothing else, I think.

GO PATRICK GO!
AND
AND
PATRICK IS SO A SHOUJO MANGA AUTHOR LOL LOL (Tachibana Juuta = Sachibana Jewel = PATRICK COLASOUR O_O
which means
Shoujo mangaka=best friend of otoman=AEU'S 'ace' pilot=fiancé of Kati.
Well, at least Juu-kun gets laid.
But it's so... FUNNy. Not perfect, but funny. It's like an alternate universe Patrick without AEU, without Katie, inside a regular Japanese school... writing fluffly romance stories based off his best friends' love demises. -laughs-
But since he got AEU'd and became acquianted with... oh dear .
HOOOOOWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARD MAAAAAAAAASOOOOOOOOON <---obligatory.
I can't remember the blac- haha.
-sigh- never mind. basically...
PATRICK SOURPUSS IS A DISCO-DICT.
W00000 )

One more thing:

I was talking to ? (Really. I can't rmemeber real names. ) after schol. She asked me out of the blue what I was goign to dress up as for Halloween, and I told her it depended on what I was in to around that time. She said she thougth she'd be a ninja, which caused much excitement on my part, as ninja=cosplay=DIVIDE BY ZERO :O Well, sicne she's considering cosplay anyway, I smiiiled.
"Oh, can I use you~?'
Which made Bea burst out in lol and rant at me. ^^;;
Course I reacted in my strange anti-personal joking way. Ahaha

Anyhow, BEEEEED! BED!!

Hello, tea fag here~.

Ah! I dind't upload that icon. Gome~n~~

Right. Let's do this properly~ Can't; It'll take too much time.

But I'll use cutesy verse to say it~.

so!

Kyou wa...
Um, a short visit to Chloes (like, ten minutes), and I'm not done my socials yet, also, I'm on episode 18 for Gundam 00.

Allelujah and Hallelujah are love! SO MUCH LOVE!

Naze? DA-KA-RA~
. Allelujah drinks tea. :D (That was the first thing that came to mind just now; TEA FAG~)
. Two in one package!
. Reversible!
. REVERSIBLE AT THE SPEED OF SLAP.
. Emo green hair. :D I wuv green hair! DIE U RIBBONS
. Na-su body. :)
. Areare is nice; Harehare is sadistic.
. Bishonen


Um... that's about it. But I can't find myself going crazy over Gundam 00... somehow.
At least, not as much as I did over Mello.

Setsuna is pretty awesome too. And that girl with the pink hair. And NENA.
Can you believe how oppressively self-centered they are? EXCELLENT.

I mean. Nena KNOWS she can act like a spoiled brat because she has her borthers to back up for her, and she knows they're perfectly pleased to do so, especially Michael. She isn't all soft; her personality stayed just as obstinately insolent when she was with Tieria, and she can pilot Gudnam Drei on her own, so she's perfectly capable when independent. Still, she knows it'll please Michael to lash out~ How nice of her! This means that she can pretty much to anything, with Michael to fight it out for her and Johann to cover up the mess with some pretty words.

By the way, no wonder their Haro is... so cruel. Poor Lockon's Haro!

Oh! About that. There's a nifty simplified version of his Haro for sale at hrl.com for 47 bucks~~ It's got a voice recorder, alarm clock, Furby-like functions, and a SECRET MODE. :O
(maybe you need a Gundam to employ that :O:O ) It's so cute and cool!

But back to Trinity. I kind of want to write a fic about them as kids now<3 SO CUTE.
Gah damn, I lost the situation while thinking of chocolate. ._. ;;

What do i have to due tomorrow?!?! D:

Nia desu.

... Matt has been in Seattle for two days.

The times Mello has either stolen or abused me in any way... are surprisingly low in number.

However, his constant pacing is cutting back on my preciously few hours of sleep. Such is Mello's irrationality; I suppose he dislikes being unable to handle the situation, or lack thereof, with his own will.

I've observed his attempts to replace Matt's presence with Lockon and Tieria, as well as Futaba. They fulfill Matt's role in amusing him; however, Mello seems to be incensed about their inability to communicate at his intellectual level.

... It is slightly amusing to be a spectator to his fits.

Mello also did his shopping alone today. He obviously misses Matt; while waiting for my new Gundam to play with, I witnessed him hissing something into his cellphone, before slamming it and walking into the candy aisle.

He looked several times from the cellphone to the displayed chocolates with an oddly disconcerted expression, before taking at few. It would seem that Mello, having used Matt to purchase his chocolate for him for too long a period, no longer recalls what brand he loves best.

... Strangely enough, his basket was empty when he reached the cashier.

Matt returned the call at 14:32. I had almost finished my puzzling when Mello's loudness took over the common room.

Needless to say, nothing came out of the conversation. I could hear Matt through Mello's frantic pacing, and he said that he was having a very good time with the ladies.

Matt spoke of concubines, and other Mellos, as well as spin-the-bottle and dancing.

In the end, Mello snapped the call to an end with a huff, and spent the rest of the afternoon playing Who's the Enemy with the Celestial Beings.

Luckily, a farmer donated a bushel of strawberries to Wammy House right before dinner. Those are currently keeping Mello (and BB, of course) occupied...

... I know that L is particularly fond of strawberries. Chances of him being in the dining hall right now would be 94%.  That is where I shall go now.

This ends my record for March 29, 2008. It is 20:04 .




[ AU!Mello]

B!tch. B!tch b!tch b!tch female puppy B4STARD who left me for some s|utty Misa wannabes.

He happened  to call while I was playing with my niece and listening to music. No one knew who the heck I was talkign to, and neither did I, until I realized the earphones and mic were still plugged in. He also didn't GET MY F-CKING EMAIL THAT i SPENT 2 HOURS AFTER MIDNIGHT MAKING.

Matt said he has another Mello in his life. He dared to to put HIM before me.
That B!TC# is going to ride my wrath to he|| and back. I look forward to meeting her.

In other ,more important news, I'm playing Gundam 00 7. Tieria really needs a new wardrobe.

The strawberries are good. They'd taste better dipped in chocolate; I'll ask M-

FUDGE WHY DOES EVERYTHING LEAD BACK TO HIM.


[Linda]

- gozaimasu~! I'm fine today.

Gundam Zerozero is really a good series! I like Lock on the best... ROCK
ON! LOCK, ON! LOCK, ON!
LOCK, ON! *makes weird movements to chant*

I visited Chloe today; Yesterday she could LIFT HER ARSM AND LEGS AT THE SAME TIME while on her stuomach... that girl has some powerful kick!

I carried her again today :0 And fed her milk from a bottle O_O
Sasu ga genius! On only her sixth day at Wa(ruudo)mmy's...

I sketched a bit  for G00. Tanoshii~!

Hm... I also haven't roleplayed either...

Mello lied about the chocolate today. I wonder why he's sacrificing eating it? He could have bougth some, but... he didn't. Even though I know he already stole a bar from Roger (I saw him eating it with Matt at the playground) .

Oh! That must be it! Mello MISSES Matt. So he doesn't feel like eating chocolate. maybe I'll check on how Mello's doing later; he would appreciate it, since he has no one else to talk to.

Matt, if you can understand what I'm saying, then you're really the closest friend he has! I think it was really, really nice of you to call Mello today, when you could have used that time and money for more fun.

Anyhow, I want to go back to watching Gundam now.

ORE GA GUNDAM DESU!

Ja,
~/_  !  /|/  />  /-|

[Near] : I've bolded the key points to make reading easier for you, Matt.

I'm feeling unhappy right now.

As of now, I've saved... about 734 pictures ^^;;

But I haven't gotten any spring break work done. That's not what's making me upset though...

It's the fact that
1. Matto said she woudl be goign with her sister to SAkuracon.

She said that she wanted to bring me, but ... Matto hasn't called at all. Sakuracon starts... Friday?

2. Jolca hasn't called for a second arrangement for an outing with me.

No explanation required.

3. The Death Note Plot at <lj user="sigil_rp">  is going well... without me. And it's really hard to keep up with <lj user="dndressingroom"> ...

I'm not feeling my worst yet. What can I do to cheer me up?

1. a) Call Matt on her cell.

2. a) Contact Jolca and ask.

3. a) Start rping seriously, and rewatch HIgurashi.

...

Hello!

So today, all I did was, um, visit Chloe, skate until I couldn't feel my toes, and look for pictures (again; it's ... methodically satisfying, and sometimes I find really awesome stuff).

Um, pictures things that made my day today <3

( Possibly Not Work Safe concepts [DEATH NOTE] )

. This song</s> (after the intro; I especially like the abedidumdai parts, somehow XD Poor Mytho!)(LETS DRESS HIM UP IN DISCO CLOTHES lol lol lol )


Oh! And I had 4 dreams with me as Mello ^^;;
*laughs* One so intense that I almost fell out of my bed trying to hug Near. (I think we were in a car. Previously, KarlMatto had been driving, but suddenly it wasn't. Matt was sitting to myMello's right, and Near to the left. Mello was sitting facing Near, and when Matt said something, Mello laughed and lunged at Near... who vanished as I almost lost my balance lunging out of my bed. - - ;;) (There was also this weird part wheremy mom sent me to school today even though ti was still spring break. I wasnt'sure... I thought there'd be no school! But apparently there was? So I was riding this strange woman's car, and then somewhere in between I had to go to this grandma person's car, and there was this danger of dangerous people talking to her, before I realized MY BACKPACK WAS STILL IN THE OTHER WOMAN'S CAR damn I lost my socials books! And when we got to school... It was that other school, the school frommy other dreams. Er... there were kids mulling about, and somehow I figured 'Ah... this is where everyone meets to hang out.' And so... and so we get to the part where Matto and I think Jolca decide to skip and say 'it's fiiiine!' ^^;;; MATTO CAN DRIIIVE.) The feeling of being with Matt, Near, and L was really... nice though. I kind of want to see them again. It was fun! (Tanoshii da!)

But I can't reember the rest. I do recall a boat full of chinese immigrants thoguh.

And a weird game ... why did I dream of coasting down a hill on a snowboard again, into the same game? soccer? But that was Mello too.

What else... can't remember. Remember trying to remember... Amii was at the school, in the gym thing.


Um. For the visit... I could calm Chloe, but I need to work on carrying her ^^;; Didnt'understand mum's instructions (I never listen to instructiosn anyway, they - I like learning on my own? I don't understand instructions... that's my excuse. I learn on my own way... )

(Speaking about learning, skating was really tiring today. But i'm quite satisfied, because I dind't fall at all :) And I was really fast at everything. And my turns came out right. And I could GLIDE, actually, backwards. :) But I was really exhausted after the circles... because I went crazy lapping everyone. That was actually agood thing, because then I was too tired to worry what everyone thought during the turns.)

Eh... I'm tired now. So...


(I do like that feeling of heat returning to frozen parts though. The tingling... It's nice.)

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I finished it! 

All thirty eight episodes, in 3 days. :)

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Ahum.

Now that I have finished it...

I'm very happy to have watched this. Sure, it was a shoujo anime... but I like shoujo anime sometimes, especially when their plotlines have some sort fo back story.

I really like how this was written though. How the entire thing was a story, being written, and the end, that was changed, by the characters themselv.es

Loved the sound track. :) And I always did love ballet.. .regardless... of. Well. it wasn't just... it can't simply be described as beautiful, meaningful, or . Perhaps the best word to describe it... best words. Hm.

Light, hopeful, and cheering. ^_^  A very different flavour from Death Note! Which I have yet to finish...

Mn... I won't be cospalying Tutu anytime soon, still, I find myself twirling aroudn the room with my Yachiru wig modified to look liek her hair ^^;;. It's fun! And... hopeful. To rewrite your own story, so hopeful!

... anyhow, before I begin sinking into my own story again, I must tell you something. ...





 </lj-cut> of it, and some ver y important news before I sleep...


My niece, Chloe, was born today.

That is all. ^_^

Sister will be giving birth in six days.

Watching Princess Tutu, how untypical of me!
However I always loved fairy tales. Always. And dancing.

Speaking bout dancing, imitating Space channel Five has been my exercise recently.

Raitoko is being strange and friendly.

Amri-chan gave me a friendship bracelet.

I'm tryign to sing in Swedish! Because of this:


My sketchbook is full; I will start inking soon.

I want copic markers.

Matto is going to Sakuracon with his sister as himself. Mello get sad sometimes.

Mello is going to be Kraehe now, alright?

... Try not to imagine Mihael in a black feather tutu. ._.

Other news, I made an email for 4chan anonymouse /cm/.

And other news? the Green tea ice cream is lmost done, all eaten by me, in two weeks.

I postponed my bio test.

I have the sniffles...

We had a power outage last night, right when I found the Princess Tutu picture in Newtype.

Dance!